Doctor Me……..

So today before I got up and left for work my little girl pulled her Doctor McStuffins mobile clinic cart beside the bed and asked, “Do you need a doctor sir?” Being the provider I work a lot but I always try before I leave to try and spend a small amount of quality time with each of the kids. Whether it be helping with homework, tickle fights, wrestling match, or a daddy monster chase (basically we run around growling and making noises driving Mommy insane). Every now and again my girl comes dressed up as a Doctor with all her torture devices, I mean doctor equipment, and makes me play the patient.

“Where does it hurt?” My daughter is in character and ready to heal any illness that is afflicting her poor daddy. I reluctantly show her my leg and she gasps! “Your going to need surgery!!” (Surgery equals a whole bunch of pokes, proddings, scratches, and smacks performed with various household items and toys.) It’s not always fun for me but it draws me and her close together. One day we can look back on the scars and reminisce about the time she pulled a stuffed snake that had somehow crawled inside my leg to live and had to be excised with a spatula.

Without knowing it my daughter was being used by God to show me something significant. Most of the time in our relationship with our Heavenly Father we have hurts from the present and the past. Things we don’t like to talk about cause we are men and “we big, strong, and no emotions”(caveman voice). Though God is asking us to be vulnerable. “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Matt.-11:28. In this scripture I take that he is my ultimate physician[physical, spiritual, and mental].

Being a Man doesn’t always have to be the tough and rugged. It’s ok to be vulnerable with God. To tell him where it hurts. Be honest on how you feel about your situation or your past. He already knows what you need before you ask. (Matt. 6:8) He wants to put you through a process of refinement and change to help you. You just have to be open and willing to accept his help. It’s perfectly acceptable as a man to tell God “I can’t make it through this anymore” or “Help me get passed something”.

The last thing my doctor session with my little girl taught me is this. Having that spiritual surgery or operation is uncomfortable. Change always is. Jeremiah 29:11- “For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans of hope and a future.” This scripture tells us its not to harm but build us up. Now I’m still not entirely certain if my little girl was trying to hurt me yesterday but if she was she most definitely succeeded. Even so, the experience is always well worth it. Why you ask? Cause it draws us closer together. So are you willing to go through some uncomfortable places in your life to grow and draw closer in your relationship with God? For me if God can get me through my daughters doctor clinic then he will get me through His.

And so it begins……

Bible tells us to always be ready to give an answer for the hope that is within us. (1st Peter 3:15) Well my hope comes from the Lord. My savior Jesus Christ. I would not be where I am today if not for Him. Lets face it guys. Life is tough sometimes. Its busy, hectic, and overwhelming. There is always a job to do, a chore to be done, a toy to fix, feelings to be talked over with significant other, etc. With the hustle and bustle of our daily lives we can’t forget the most important aspect. Our relationship with Christ. It has taken me a long time to come to the realization that I am a Christian first, husband second, father third, and so on and so forth. Without God I am nothing but with Him all things are possible.

For now here is a little information about me. I’m 29. I am happily married [no I wasn’t forced to say that] to a wonderful woman who for Lord only knows the reasons puts up with me for almost 9 years now. We have 2 crazy kids. I don’t really remember what life was like before we had the offspring. With them there is never a dull moment for sure. The girl is a drama queen and the boy is a daredevil. I am doing the best I can to provide them the best childhood that I can. Growing up life was challenging to say the least but eventually we can get into that. I attend an awesome church that has been so life changing and refreshing. I had felt so stagnant in my relationship with God. I was stuck in the same routine. One thing I know about the nature of God is He is all about some change. He is the blacksmith, we are the metal, life is the anvil and hammer. He is always trying to forge and mold us to the best versions of ourselves that we can be. It takes pressure, heat, and a rigorous process to change a plain piece of steel to lets say a sword. So heres to the many ups and downs of the hammer, the heat of the forge, and the solid anvil.